BPD is very well known for its impulsivity aspect. I know for a fact it does because I’ve done s*it ton of impulsive crap I’ve lost count.

But why am I and many others like this? 

Let’s start by talking about one of the worst dangerous combos. Chronic emptiness + impulsivity. Both often found in patients with borderline personality disorder means we, or at least I, feel empty basically all of the time. It’s hard to describe but if I had to try I’d say it’s like having a hole in your chest. It’s constant and heavy like a black hole, all the pain concentrated in a singular point so heavy it bends the psyche. Most importantly this lack of emotion contrasts the dramatic side of bpd, which surfaces when presented with triggers. But generally speaking I feel nothing most of the time. Now remember impulsivity? It comes hand in hand with this everlasting emptiness. Adrenaline, often felt in thrill seeking activities is the fuel that keeps us going. We take actions causing excitement to escape the everyday dullness of our mind.